Poor Twinkle

Thanks for all of your caring comments, emails, and phone calls about little Agnes Rosebud. I'm sorry I didn't answer them all, I just really didn't want to talk about it much, but I did appreciate your thoughtfulness. And thanks for trying to make me let go of the guilt.  I'm still just sick about my carelessness.

As much as I miss the tiny pup, her Dog Mom misses her even more. At first Twinkle was in a panic and searched everywhere for her.  I hate to say this, and must warn you to skip this next sentence if you are squeamish, but we had to disinter Aggie to show Twinkle where she was.  That really did calm Tinks down and stopped her frantic searching.

Then, she was extremely needy for a while, but now, this is all she does.  No more scampering around with her little best friend, the two of them at my heels no matter where I am or what I'm doing, both looking up at me with those inquisitive, terrier eyes, wanting to know what fun thing will happen next. Will I sit at my desk? Will I be turning on the TV?  Oh, heavens, could I be opening the DOOR?????  Could I be eating something that has crumbs??

Yes, they were so funny and so happy all the time, and thought that any move I made was endlessly fascinating.   They even appreciated my singing and couldn't wait to hear the next line of any song I made up.

But now, Rosey is gone and Twinkle won't leave her pillow. Its so sad. 

I'm not ready for a new dog, a "replacement" dog just doesn't feel right.  But even if I'm not ready, I think I need to get a dog for Twinkle.  She is lonely and depressed. We'll see. I don't know if I could give my heart to a puppy yet. 

We'll lavish lots of extra love on Tinks for now, and I'll keep my eye out for a new pet for her.

Comments

[Rachael]

so so sorry! Please give her a hug and kiss from me! And for you also! Rachael xo

[barbara]

Karla, just catching up on your posts and I am so terribly sorry. I know it must be hard to not feel guilty, but honestly, accidents happen. You're a loving, responsible pet owner. I hope your heart will heal soon. xo Barbara

[Judi Storm]

She just needs to grieve like we do. I know because this happened with my black labs. She would go outside or sit on the porch and yell for him for days. After quite some time she came back to her old self. She did however stay a little closer to us than before. Judi

[barbara]

My heart is breaking for everyone.....

[YokkoBears Bears with a HEART]

Besides having your own tears about Rosey, you also see and feel how sad sweet Twinkle is.
And that hurts ...... that hurts so much.
Wished I lived close by, so Twinkle could get some warmth from our "lads", they would love to give her that.

Dear Karla, please know and feel in your heart that sweet Agnes Rosebud enjoyed her life at your place,
close to you and Twinkle.

You described it so good ..... the way Rosey and Twinkle were in your neighbourhood all the time,
waiting for all the things to come .......
I recognize that from our pets all the time.

Karla, wished I could do some for you.
Take Care.

[Laurie]

Poor Twinkle. I can't wait to give her a hug, too.

[Jennifer Hayslip]

Karla, PLEASE give Twinkle a big cuddly hug from me. My heart is so heavy for all of you and for Miss Twinkle. When the time is right I have no doubt you will welcome a new yorkie in your home and bring more companionship and happiness to you all. Agnes Rosebud will forever live in your hearts!!! ((HUGS MY FRIEND!!)) xoxo,Jenn

[Cheryl]

Karla you big silly... you have the biggest, most generous heart around. I think that by taking in another dog would be a fabulous idea all around. You wouldn't be "replacing" your beloved lost dog-- you'd be giving some happiness and love to another dog who is waiting to find a forever home. I think the sooner you do this the better :-) Don't wait until "your" ready... think about the dog who is ready and waiting.... ohhhhhhh so sad! Go get one today!!! okokok, and another kitty too ;-P (and don't forget to spay and neuter! lol)
Big-big-big hugs,
Cheryl

Grieve not,
nor speak of me with tears,
but laugh and talk of me
as if I were beside you...
I loved you so ------
'twas Heaven here with you.

Isla Paschal Richardson

[Charlotte]

Oh, Karla. I am so sorry this happened to you and your treasured dog family. The little poem that Cheryl sent you is comforting, and sad, too. Your long distance friends will miss Miss Rosebud.

[Lena]

Oh gosh Karla, I'm so saddened for you all. I know it must hurt terribly. My heart goes out to you.

xo

[Sheila R]

Karla,

I just read about Anges Rosebud and now Twinky. I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you and little Twinky!

Sending you all big hugs!

[Diane]

I read this earlier and had to close and come back to it later. This breaks my heartfor you and Twinkle. You are not a bad doggy Mom, those little wirery little dogs go so fast. I have to watch mine like a hawk. I am so sorry and hope you and Twinkle let this go by in time!!

[Chris Scogin Shabby Shack Boutique]

My Heart is just Aching for you and Twinkle.

[Susan Hahaj]

Poor pumpkin searching for her best friend! The good thing is that you have such a heart for your pets, as I do mine, and that makes them luckier than a lot of other pets who never have a loving home. You meant no harm or ill will towards your dog, it was just an accident, and it could have been any of us. Take care!

[Kate G.]

Oh, gosh! I'm sorry about Agnes, Karla!
Kate

[Carol]

So very sorry, for u r loss...we have always had 2 dogs 2 keep each other company, unfortunately, whe one goes 2 doggie heaven, the one left grieves, I was told by a vet along time ago, 2 take them both when u have 2 finally do what u must....it brings closure 2 the survivor, so they don't think their buddy disappeared....it is still hard on them, but does help....u did the right thing....take care!

Carol

[Sandy]

Oh Karla, my heart hurts for you and for sweet Twinkle. I feel your pain and loss. I am sending you all healing thoughts and big cyber hugs. I am so sorry for your loss, in my book, pets are family members and their loss is felt deeply. Thank you for the many smiles your darling fur girls have given me though your posts, it was and is a joy and pleasure to know them through your blog.

[kat]

I love my Yorkies! You must have a heavy heart - my advice - It's hard to be sad with a puppy licking your face and Twinkle needs someone to love!

[lisa]

Karla,
I wanted to call but figured you needed time to just be with yourself about it all. I have thought about you so much these last days. Everytime we lose a dog it seems we rush into a new one in an effort to avoid the pain. I know your right tho about Twinkle needing someone to Mother. Think about it tho. Give it a little bit of time so that the right pup comes to you. You'll know when your next soul dog comes into your life.
See you soon.
Lisa

[jeanine mayden]

karla, give it time. twinks just needs time too. the right thing will happen. whether it be a new pup or not. just give it time. too many emotions right now. praying for you and twinks. button is just watching me right now wondering why i am so sad. i feel your pain and you are not to pick up that guilt anymore. jeanine